You're not allowed in

I have so many things to say, but I'm ashamed of how the words sound in my mouth. Of how bitter they taste, and of how sad they make me feel once spoken.
I'm ashamed of my own humiliation. I'm too embarrassed to say the words that are in my heart.
I wonder why I do the things I do, why do I put myself in situations that are potentially draining and destructive. Why do I hurt myself so badly? Why do I insist in seeing a person who has tried through all manners to avoid me?
I'm starting to believe that I'm not normal. There must be something wrong with my mind. I wish someone could stop me from going there... I wish someone cared. :(

   Is it true that you miss me now?     
                                                   
                                                        "Let Her Go"

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast

You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much
And you dived too deep

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
Will you let her go?

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go

Lacrimejando

Hoje meu coração pesa mais que a Terra.
E eu sou menor que um ponto no mundo.
Conviver com as lagrimas exige um esforço terrível.
Elas consomem a mente, os hábitos, as vontades...
Essa gotinhas de água escorrendo pelo rosto,
desprovidas de qualquer clemência, destroem o que há por dentro,
como ácido, implacavelmente.
E por fora, um rosto demacrado...
Dirse-ia que um ciclone transtornou a minha vida,
não houvesse a certeza de que ando chorando ultimamente.

mercy

Ripping my heart out of my chest would be merciful.
Leaving it there to poison all the rest of me is malignant.

Echo.

I want my scream to echo in your soul.
So I'll yell words of love...
and words of pain.
Whatever you get to feel,
it'll be just right.